10 May 2013

HAPPY Summer Vacations?

Exactly two days since I am home for the two month long summer vacations. The terrifying dream, I tried my best to keep away is one I am living now! Even as I write this, I am wondering why don't I just write every bit of anxiety as it comes in my mind and why wait or think of suitable words or place in this piece. I think I am gonna do what I thought why I am not doing. Here it goes...
  • Being a student of architecture for two years now, has made me, willing and unwillingly, love working! Tens of sheets to be submitted in a night (not to consider the fact that 'a' night is a self chosen way, a week provided is always too much for any submission, we prefer doing it the leisure way), actually being awake and completing the work a few minutes before the submission time (the time for getting ready and walking all the way to college has to be previously kept in account). Don't know if it is actually the work, or the night time silence, the delicious coffee I make, which has made me fall for the one everyone else seems to curse around me. Coming to the conclusion of it, I have been loving working, and its terrifying that in vacations I will have officially no work! What I am gonna do? :O Obviously a lot has been planned, but will it be the same with no compulsion as before?
  •  Every single thing is going to change for the next two months.
    • The food: How much ever bad it is from the home heaven's food, I still had the choice whether to have it or not, when to have it when not. And now, all of a sudden those strict schedules!
    • Friends: Tonnes of gossips everyday, from classroom to department, hostel, room, before and after viva (not to forget during exams), SAC, nescafe, 10 No., DB, these friends are omnipresent like none else! Now, these friends whom you never needed to text, will have to be *kept in touch* through FB, whatsApp and if you are rich enough for a message pack, through texts!
    • The strolls: Your partner for the evening stroll. Who is, in turn, your partner for everything else... the crime, new market ka barf gola, rice bowl and every possible place except your hostel. He/She shall never cross your hostel's threshold. The one around whom every day and night revolves, from the good morning to the good night texts, reaching college early only to spend some time together before the classes start, skipping even the Wednesday's kadi-chawal only to have lunch together, CADing together before submissions, walking miles in the campus and losing kilos, entering hostel not before 10pm, for you don't want to miss even a single available minute TOGETHER!
      And then comes the monster called VaCaTiOnS... Its taking you miles and miles, farrrrrr away every hour. Don't we just hate state boundaries! If only this world was literally a small place. Perhaps as tiny as the campus. And you hate the change, even it is for just two months. JUST? So that's just two months? *If only I could punch that part of myself which came up with this one just!*
      Moral of the story: Not even a single day is *just* when... well, above is your story. Sigh!
  • Weird as it may sound... all those status and pictures by the final years has made it even worse for the anxious me! Its going to happen to me in 3 years :O Like really? I will have to let every secret, grudge out, the black, the blue, and the white-signature day too? Will actually have to pack everything up from my room, am I going to cry like some? No, I am not! But then why I am beginning to, now?          ...Now vacations are a time you waste doing nothing at home, while you should be back at college adding some extra days to your college life, which you are surely going to beg for at the end of next three years! If only...

    Just hoping it is still enough of a Happy Summer vacations.

26 March 2013

Of Bits & Pieces

Something from drafts, written months ago. Great to see now how life has taken the good turn :)

"Ever felt that feeling of saturation when it feels as if you are the happiest person on earth, as if there is nothing more left to accomplish, as if you have it all even without asking for it? And all this without one particular reason to go with! Keep wondering the reason and the next moment you would be stuck up with the feeling that this is nothing but a trap, a trap of uncertainties, of illusions.

What is all this? A time when you are asked how's life and you say 'nothing much.' While actually you have so many things going on that instead of explaining the haphazard around you choose to present as if nothing's  happening, as if nothing is important enough.
A time when you fool yourself to be busy with priorities in life while actually the precious ones are ignored.
A time which you spend ignoring the best in you only because it is not in demand... while embracing those things which are well followed by the herd.

A time when you smile all through, you have people to be with, you have festivals to celebrate and you do it all.... but only to discover one night how you have no one to speak to about the thrills of the day... no one to cry in front of, cry for no good reason or cry for that one reason you are writing this for..."

A recent picture which goes by the feel of this piece :P